The Glass Ceiling

Havent posted in a while but I need to vent big time. Seems like sometimes all I use this for is to blow of steam, but oh well I think almost noone reads this anyway so a little venting here probably does me good.

I'm steaming right now. Steaming more than I think I ever have.

I'm playing some limit Razz. I've started getting into the game, I really enjoy it. I think I've got a reasonable grasp of the basics, but I readily acknowledge I'm just starting out. That said knowing the basics seems to be enough to get by at the lowest level.

So about 10 hands in I have 2 A / 4. A J brings in, a 2 completes, I raise and a 5 raises again. I get a 3 next card, and again the betting is frenetic. A 6 drops on fifth street and I have a great hand, I go to bet ... and I get a lag spike ... been getting a few from Full Tilt. I time out, and 7 high huge pot - I had already made 6 high. Thanks a lot Full Tilt.

Then of course I go on the sickest run and get beat by one card four or five times. I turn what should have been up $10 into down $17 in 15 minutes.

OK thats not a lot of money but thats not what is steaming me, it's the glass ceiling. I've been grinding away for months and I finally got my BR to $1k. Then as soon as I hit it I go on the sickest downswings, usally about 20 to 25% of my BR. First time I ground back over three weeks ... hit $1k again, then boom, down I go again. ANother 4 weeks grinding it back and boom, same again, back I go ... third time for the grind and I am starting to get weary from it.

Yes I know this is poker, yes I know I have to deal with it, but I've had Rob telling me over and over and over how hard he tries to play good poker and keeps getting destroyed by the bad players sucking out. I'm starting to know how he feels ... except now I think I'm starting to play worse too. This is the hardest part ... trying to stay upbeat, stay positive, stay disiciplined. Its tough 'cos I'm reading on +1 guys like Hellory and Urbluffingme KILLING 25nl, like 15-25PTBB/100 .... whereas after 21k hands I'm at about 3.5BB/100. It's disheartening. Clearly I'm not playing great poker, and its frustrating me, and if anything I think I'm starting to regress a little. I'm still searching for that method that will let me improve ... I know there's no magic formula to BEING a good player, but I cant seem to find a METHOD that suits me to improve. People are awfully protective not of HOW to play, but how they LEARNED to improve. It's frustrating me to tears, I love the game, but the glass ceiling is killing me right now. Just killing me, I feel like I'm in a maze with no end.

There's my rant of the day. Probably pointless but at least it is some steam vented.